So many changes!I

It seems that things almost never change. I still wait longer than I want to do everything from shopping to writing my blog, I still haven't been able to sleep well, and I still don't eat as well as I should regardless of the fact that I know I should, and I want to.

This being said, it seems that lately everything has been changing! There are things here within the university admistration that are changing. This means everything from the set up to the way we are supposed to teach to the position people are in; all of this is going to change. I am not completely sure what to think about these changes just yet, but I do anticipate some problems on the horizon.

On another note, things have been a little tough for me for the past few weeks (2 or 3 actually). I had been sick, and then I had to take a Turkish test even though I had missed 2 weeks of class. I did score a 59%, so I was very happy! I never thought I would say that, but having not put the effort in required to get a good score, this was better than I was actually expecting. I have been seriously thinking about leaving the company, but I know that if I decide to do that, I will be out a lot of money, I won't have a job, and I won't be given a letter of release allowing me to work in the Kurdistan Region. This may not seem like a bid deal, but I like it here for some strange reason, and I would really like to stay. My only problems come from my job, and if I were able to either get a different one or even work freelance, I would be alright.

My students are actually causing me a bit of frustration at the moment, however. I just passed out a book for them (21 pages, maybe 3rd grade level), and they are struggling with it. I decided to make the homework to prepare for class. I don't think they are used to having to do that and making it homework may remind them to do so. I know that if they look at it at home, they will have time to translate everything and be ready to read it in class. I wish that they wouldn't rely on translation, but I don't know if they are ready to not. I can't fight it anymore; I will merely keep mentioning it and hope that some of them will take it in.

I keep telling myself that I don't care about the way my students perform, but I really do. I think I am too easily attached, and I feel almost personally responsible for their English ability. I know this isn't true, but I can't help but feel it, nonetheless. I guess this is why it is so frustrating to me when they don't seem to care, when they talk while I am talking, or when they come back from break 5 minutes late. I guess I should expect it, but I still do not find it acceptable.

I am thinking about hiring someone to do my cooking for me. As much as I don't like to have someone do my work, I am not eating correctly, and I don't forsee that changing anytime soon. So, if I hired a cook, then I wouldn't have to worry about what to eat or having to prepare it; I could just come home and have it either waiting or being prepared (or even just ready to heat up in the microwave). The only other solution I can think of is to get married, and the possibility of that seems quite low at the moment.

I guess that is all for now. I seem to have been rambling much more than usual, and there are many topics covered here; however, I think they are all relevant to what is happening and what I may need to do in the future. And barring being fired or some unforseen circumstances, I should be here until the end of June or mid-July. Hopefully by then I will have lined up another job....hopefully in the area!